It’s an amazing and sad thing… but I’ve seen it in myself again: I still struggle to accept God’s grace. My pride and unbelief are such terrible enemies. Yesterday, my pride was struggling to be grateful for the grace that God had extended to me, and today my unbelief was telling myself that God’s love, compassion, and understanding were for others, but not for me. Away with such thoughts!
Jesus has reminded me of some of the sweetest times I’ve had with Him. During these times, I meditated often about the grace of God. My favorite chapters in the Bible were Ezekiel 36, Exodus 33, and Exodus 34. I also greatly appreciated Psalm 91:1.
God taught me how to bask in His love. I loved listening to the accounts of His incredible, undeserved mercy, as beautifully shared in Ezekiel 36, Exodus 33, and Exodus 34. I believed in and embraced His loving character. I believed it was for me, and I allowed His love to cause my heart to rest.
I was going through such a difficult time then. On some days, I did not have the emotional wherewithal to go through a Bible passage, but on those days, I still spent quality time with God. God gave me the idea to imagine myself in “a clift of the rock” (Exodus 33:22), as Moses was so long ago, while God passed over me (Exodus 33:18-23). He also gave me the idea to imagine myself “under the shadow of the Almighty” Psalm 91:1.
Let me tell you, this basking in God’s love was healing, pure, peaceful contentment. So, why, you may ask, did I fall away from this peaceful walk with Christ? It was because I had some major dysfunctions in my life which were fueled by a lack of total trust in God, and too much confidence in other people.
I wrote a blog post a while back about some of the insights I had gained regarding excessive trust in people. Where I am in my journey with God now, I am learning (stress on “learning!”) to embrace Him as my only Savior and to remember and believe that He always knows and understands the truth about every aspect of my heart and life, even when others may not. Oh, what security I am finding as I realize that God understands me completely and that it is His opinions about and judgments of me that are the final word! The more secure and settled I am in my relationship with Jesus, the less strong many of my temptations to become judgemental and/or manipulative towards others become (I recommend looking at the “Impatient Judgement” and”Fearful Judgement” sections of this blog post).
So, back to the main point of this blog post, I am reminded of the need for, and the privilege of, basking in the sweet love of God. God’s love is for absolutely every human being that has ever lived: no exceptions! It’s wonderful to bask in God’s love. ❤
Thank you for journeying with me. Blessings and courage to all. 🙂 I’m ending with a song that helps me to bask in God’s wonderful love. ❤