Hello everyone. 🙂 Some time ago, I asked a sister in Christ if I could share her beautiful testimony here on my blog. I asked her again recently, and she is still willing to have it shared here. This testimony is powerful in its rawness and sincerity. My prayer is that Jesus would keep working on me, because there is SO much work on me that needs to be done, and that He would continue to work on all of us, because all of us need SO much help from Him. What a patient, kind and loving Savior He is.
“The greatest battles ever fought on earth are fought within you and me. Let me tell you what the past year has been to me.
It all started when I walked through the fires of affliction. Breaking suddenly upon me and lasting about 13 months, I went through the most intensely difficult time of my entire life. Everything, including me, fell apart. I had no one to turn to but God, and I could not understand why this was happening. My sorrow was so severe that my physical being began to crumble. My bones grew prominent lumps and caused me so much pain, but that had nothing on the pain in my heart.
Since I could not understand how or why all these awful things were happening to me, I began to search much deeper than I had ever searched before. I thought I knew myself. I thought my intentions were unselfish…until I took a much deeper look.
Around the summertime of a couple of years ago, I began to realize how selfish my whole life had been. I began to prioritize what was really important to my life, and I began to contact my parents regularly and let them and my children know how much I cared about them, because tomorrow is never a guarantee.
But still everything seemed unrelentingly against me. Every day was pure torment. I’m sparing the details, because to write it all would take a large book. And still the flames continued to burn…
Finally, I was ready to die. Nothing seemed better to me.
And that’s God showed me His beautiful heart, His love. In my darkest hour, when my strength was gone and I had nothing left, I found everything in Him.
HERE is where last year began for me. It hit me like lightning when it happened. It was as if I had been awakened from a dream, as if I had been sleeping all my life. And, I realized, I had.
Light is understanding. And when God gives you light, there is no language to describe the experience. It is a supernatural thing. You will never be the same. And He did this for me!
I suddenly understood the things I went through. They were, in part, to guide me to a true understanding of where I really was. I had lost my way and didn’t even know…
What I found was so beautiful!
These-the betrayal, rejection, false accusations, and being entirely misunderstood-were the things Christ went through for me. Being given the chance to experience some of the sorrows and grief He endured for me became such a privilege, because it made me see and understand His love as nothing else could. I became aware of His self-sacrificing love, and I could now see that His law is the perfect law of love and freedom! The Bible, which was pretty hard to understand before, suddenly became alive to me! It speaks to me directly now. So fascinating! Supernatural. I’m constantly in awe.
When He won the victory over lifelong battles within, when His Spirit awakened this new life in me, I was literally in a state of amazement and complete awe for at least a month! But there were really no words adequate to describe the experience…
But this I know. He gave me a taste of the bliss of heaven and there’s nothing in earth to compare to it! He broke the chains of bondage to the anger, the addiction, and everything I could not conquer myself, even with all my might, and He flooded my soul with the sweetest, most comforting, healing peace and joy and love. It’s a peace that nothing can disturb, a joy that no one can take away, and a love that sees through His eyes!
Before last year, I was blind, and I didn’t even know. It’s alarming to think how lost a person can be without even knowing. Going off the right path makes you blind to what’s right and wrong, and there lies the great danger. Last year, I found the Light to see my path, and I am in complete awe of God, of who He is to me, of His beautiful, selfless love! I hope you seek Him relentlessly with every fiber of your being, because He alone has what every soul is searching for. I searched for decades, and for decades He searched for me, and we found each other this year.
This has been the most comforting, beautiful year of my life. The year that who I was died, and I AWAKENED into a wonderful new life with God.
Do you really know where you would stand if everything you relied on in the world fell apart and every comfort was gone? Do you take the time to seek out meaning and purpose behind the events in your life?
I hope that this new year brings YOU light and peace and joy and love! I hope you aren’t distracted by the busy busy world, with it’s fun attractions and it’s overwhelming problems. I hope you seek truth always and have an honest heart. I hope you venture to trust in the God who created your soul, who keeps your heart beating and loves you with a love stronger than death. He wants to be your everything. You’ll never find a love better than His!
On this last day of this year, I just thought I should share the source of the joy and peace and healing I found this year!
‘O taste and see that the Lord is good: blessed is the man that trusteth in Him.’ Psalm 34:8
May this new year be a truly happy and meaningful one for you!
One of God’s Daughters”